Thursday, February 26, 2009

The Air She Breathes

This is going to be a long one. Just a warning.

So Brother Harrell, he's a creative writing teacher here at BYU-I, suggested some things to do to help get ideas for stories when writing on a deadline or when things seem to have just come to a hault. One of these suggestions was to write a story to a set of pictures. Well I took a whole bunch of pictures in San Diego with a story in mind. I got all the pictures I could ever want and still I could not write it. Everytime I sat down to do it another story inspired by one of the pictures popped into my head. So I wrote it.

This is one of the millions of pictures taken at Carlsbad Beach. I know it's blurry, but that's Shane.


The only reason she knows she's still alive is because of the steady rise and fall of her chest beneath her hand. It's too quiet, too still, too calm. She thinks about where she might be; how far a scream might carry, if there's even anyone to hear it. She closes her eyes and it looks the same as if they were open. She tries to remember what happened.

“Dang it!” She hits the steering wheel with the palm of her hand, too angry to even wince at the stinging red welt it leaves behind. Smoke billows out from underneath the hood of the car and she feels like she is driving through fog. Kayla decides it's probably time to pull the car over. Once in the emergency pull off lane she turns the car off and takes a moment to lay her forehead on the steering wheel. “This is not happening.” Letting go of a deep sigh she opens the car door and steps out. She doesn't bother looking for any cars that might be barreling down the highway, she already knows there aren't any. Struggling to open the hood of the car, she's finally able to prop it up. If it was possible even more smoke puffed up once released from the constraints of the hood. She takes a step back, waving her hand in front of her face and coughing. Reaching into her pocket she pulls out her cell phone hoping there is the tiniest bit of service in this waste land. She dials a number from memory and waits for her brother to answer.

“Hello, Kayla.” He says and his slow, southern drawl makes it sound like yellow. It makes her long for her home in Alabama instead of being stuck somewhere between Arizona and California.

“Hey, so there's smoke.”

“Smoke.” He repeats and she can almost see his bright smile and one raised, dark brown eyebrow.

“As in my car is smoking and no longer running.” she expounds.

“Where are you?” Kayla looks around at the vast expanse of desert and sighs.

“Earth.” Her brother lets out a bark of laughter.

“Okay, well you're going to have to wait for the engine to cool down before you can do anything. So just chill out in your car for a little bit. No opening the hood, no pouring water anywhere yet. Just sit tight.”

“No opening the hood?” Kayla questions, biting her lip.

“You already did.”

“Well there was smoke and any logical person would figure it shouldn't be all trapped inside where it's obviously freaking hot so I opened the hood Adam.”

“Okay, calm down. You opened the hood. Did you burn yourself?'

“No.”

“Good. Now get back in the car and don't touch anything.” There's a brief pause. “I love you.”

“Yeah, yeah. I love you too.” Kayla goes back to the driver's side of the car and slides back in. She closes the door and proceeds to roll down all of the windows. “It's so hot Adam. How long am I going to have to wait?” She leans back into the seat and closes her eyes. She can already feel the sweltering heat suffocating her. She wonders how anyone can breathe in this heat. It's not even humid, it's just hot.

“Well if you had kept an eye on the temperature gauge like I told you to then I'm sure you wouldn't be in this mess.”

“I was keeping an eye on it. I watched it go all the way up to the red zone.” Kayla tells him truthfully.

“What are you, four? Red means bad. Red means turn off the air conditioning and roll down the windows. Red means pull over. Red means call your brother and ask what to do.” Adam scolds.

“Hey, don't you give me a lecture. It's not my fault I'm the one having to drive all the way to California. You're the one that's supposed to be doing this. I was just doing my kid brother a favor so don't go all 'holier than thou' on me Adam. I'm stuck in the middle of nowhere all by myself and the last thing I need is for my little brother to lecture me.”

“Kayla,” Adam says and sighs, “Kayla calm down. I'm sorry. Here I'm going to give you something to do to try and help with cooling down the engine. Just go get one of the gallon jugs out of the trunk and go to the hood of the car.” Without saying a word to Adam, Kayla does what he asked her to do. When she's standing at the hood of the car, gallon jug of water in hand, she tells him.

“Okay now what?” she asks trying to keep as much sarcasm from her voice as possible.

“You're going to check the coolant reservoir tank. It looks like a plastic milk jug with a hose going to the radiator.” Kayla looks under the hood for something resembling what Adam is talking about. When she finds it she smiles. Not as hard as she thought it was going to be.

“Found it.” she says happily.

“Good. Now carefully unscrew the cap and then pour in the water until it's full. Be careful.” Kayla unscrews the cap and sets it down on the edge of the car. Balancing the jug of water between her leg and the car she unscrews the cap and places it next to the coolant reservoir tank cap. A little hesitantly at first she begins to pour the water into the tank. The first splash of water in the tank lets her know that it was empty.

“Adam,” she says, “it's not good if it was empty, huh?”

“No, not really.” he says laughing. “It'll be okay. We'll just take care of this and you'll be back on the road in no time.” He assures her.

“Okay good.” She fills the tank and then sets the jug down on the dirt and gravel that makes up the emergency pull off lane. “Alright I did that, now what?”

“Go and try turning on the car. Maybe that will have fixed it.” Adam says, but he doesn't sound all that convinced. Kayla gets back into the car and turns the key in the ignition.

“Nothing.” she tells him.

“Then you're just going to have to wait for the engine to cool down some more. Wait about thirty minutes and then see if the engine is still hot. Don't touch it or anything. Just grab a rag and get it wet. Use that to see if the engine is hot. Call me when you've done that. Okay?”

“You're hanging up?” Kayla asks and she's pretty proud of herself for keeping the panic she's feeling out of her voice.

“I'm at work. I can't stay on the phone with you for an hour. You'll be fine. Like you said no one else is out there so it's not like anything is going to happen.”

“Funny Adam.”

“Yeah, I try to be. Anyway I've gotta go.”

“Alright. Love you.” Kayla tells him a little begrudgingly.

“Love you too.” Adam says before hanging up. Kayla sighs and puts the cell phone in the cup holder next to her. Laying her head back against the head rest she closes her eyes. She thinks she'll take a little bit of a nap and the engine will have cooled off by the time she wakes up.

She doesn't know how long she's been asleep. At first she figured the sound of a motor was part of a dream, but when she opens her eyes, squinting against the brightness of the desert sun, she sees a motorcycle. When the motorcycle flies on past she grumbles under her breath about missing southern hospitality. She figures now would be as good a time as any to see if the engine has cooled off. She's getting out of the car when she hears the motorcycle again. They turned around, she thinks happily. Kayla walks back to the trunk to grab a rag and the other jug of water. She stops and waits as the man climbs off his bike and takes off his helmet.

“Car trouble?” he asks, smiling.

“My engine just overheated. Nothing too serious.” She answers and returns the smile.

“Well here let me help you.” He offers putting his helmet down on the seat of his bike. He walks over and takes the water jug and rag from her before heading toward the front of the car. Kayla follows. “What are you doing all the way out here?” he asks, having taken note of her Alabama plates.

“I'm doing a favor for my little brother. He used to live in San Diego.” She thinks about giving him a call to let him know someone stopped to help her. She reaches into her pocket only to remember she left the phone in the car. She decides not to worry about it. She'll call him when she's back on the road.

“How long have you had the engine off?” he asks.

“Um,” she says thinking about it, “probably a little over a half an hour now. I filled the reservoir tank, but the car still wouldn't start so I've just been waiting for the engine to cool down.” He looks impressed with her knowledge and she smiles. He goes to work fiddling with things and then pouring water in. She stands just off to the side watching. “I'm Kayla by the way.” she informs him.

“Thomas.” he replies looking at her over his shoulder.

“Do you live around here?” she asks looking around as if expecting to suddenly see some form of life. “Wherever here is.” she adds. He laughs and nods his head.

“You're just about twenty miles from Peach Springs. It's true though. Not too many people live around here.”

“Well thank you for coming back to help me. I really appreciate it.”

“It's no problem.” he says finishing up. “There, I think you should be fine now. Your brother's awfully lucky to have you around.”

“I guess. He's not half bad himself.” she picks up the two discarded jugs while he's screwing all the caps back on everything.

“You look hot,” he tells her and her eyes widen for a brief moment before he finishes his sentence, “I've got some water if you want some.”

“Oh, yeah sure. That'd be great.” She rolls her eyes at herself and bites back a laugh when she thinks about recounting all of this to her brother when she's back on the road. She follows him back around the car and tosses the jugs in the near empty trunk before shutting it. He already has a water bottle in hand, cap off, when she turns around. She accepts the drink and takes a sip. “Thanks.”

“No problem.” she leans against the trunk of the car and the hot metal almost burns right through the seat of her jeans, but she doesn't move. There's a bit of an awkward silence and Kayla takes a few more sips of water.

“Where are you headed?” she finally asks to break the silence.

“Just out for a drive.” Kayla nods and it feels strange, her head is heavy. She closes her eyes and takes a deep breath. She figures it's just the heat getting to her or she's just more tired than she originally thought. She has been driving for quite some time.

“Are you feeling alright?” she hears him ask. His voice sounds far away. She opens her eyes and it's a more difficult task than it should be. Kayla knows something is wrong.

“I'm fine.” The sentence makes sense in her head, but she doesn't think it quite made it past her lips. She drops the water bottle and leans against the car for more support. “Thanks for your help. I think I'll just lay down in my car.” Her words are slurring together and it takes all her concentration to walk toward the driver's side door.

“Would you like some help?” She's scared now and wishing she had never left her phone in the car. She can't form words so she tries shaking her head. It makes the dizziness worse. She reaches for the handle of the car door and loses her balance in the process of opening it. From the ground she can see her phone laying in the car. She struggles to scoot back toward the door in order to use it for support. Hearing the crunch of dirt and gravel she turns to see him walking toward her, his white shirt being blown in the hot desert breeze. Her vision blurs and she loses the battle of keeping her heavy eyes open.

Kayla opens her eyes and gasps, the memory flooding back in bits and pieces. She moves her hand from off her stomach and places it beside her where she feels some sort of wood wall. She puts it a few inches above her face and feels the same wood wall. Heart racing, she tries not to panic. Hearing movement outside of the box she's in she closes her eyes and tries to still her breathing. She feels the entire box move to one side and then light and fresh air pour in. She tries not to take big gulping breaths and she keeps her eyes shut. She feels hands on her side and she's being shoved further into the box. There's a thud beside her and she feels the warmth of another body.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Rock Climbing and IHOP

So last night Sojin, Kristen, Miriam, and I went rock climbing. We usually go on Thursday nights because it's only $5, but last Thursday it was so busy that told us we could come back on another day and still only pay $5. Since I'm sick with some sort of cold or whatever I let Sojin use my $5 thing and I watched and took pictures.

Sojin is super quick going up the wall and she looked like a monkey.


Miriam going up the wall like a spider.


Kristen very intent on not letting Sojin fall.


After rock climbing we went to IHOP for free pancakes. They were more like mini pancakes though. We convinced Shane to go, but he said only on the condition that we made him do his homework. We did. He even finished it. :)


Miriam and Shane doing homework while we wait for a table.


Kristen, Miriam, Shane, and Derek (Shane's roomie).


Tiffany (Marissa's sister), Marissa, and me.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

No-Bake Cookies


This recipe is from a book we got here at school called Family Favorites: Recipes from BYU-Idaho Students and Faculty.

- 2 c sugar
- 1/2 c margarine
- 3 T cocoa
- 1/2 c milk
- 1/2 c peanut butter
- 1 t vanilla
- 3 c quick oats

Mix sugar, margarine, cocoa, and milk. Cook until it comes to a boil, stirring it to keep the milk from scalding.


Remove from heat. Add peanut butter, vanilla, and quick oats. Spoon onto wax paper.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Girls' Night Out

Last night we (meaning me, Kristen, Miriam, Hannah, and Sojin) decided to have a girls' night out because guys were being lame and turning us down left and right. Pfft their loss. We left at about 8:30 pm and we were going to go to DI and pick out outfits for each other, but when we got there it was closed. So we went to the next best place, Big 5. It's a sporting goods store. We put on crazy sunglasses and hats and hunter's vests and took pictures. One of the girls working thought we were hilarious. After that we went to Dairy Queen and got peanut butter parfaits while rocking out to some fantastical music supplied by the radio.

When we got home we made no-bake cookies. It was my first time making this kind of cookie and it was so much fun. it's a really quick and easy thing to make when you're in a bind and need a treat. I think I might whip this recipe out when my kids tell me they need a bajillion treats for their class...tomorrow. Haha.

We made the cookies so we could doorbell ditch some of our guy friends. We decided on four different apartments to doorbell ditch: Shane, Elder Lewis, Leo, and our FHE brothers.

I'll post the recipe in a follow up blog. For now I just want to talk about the difficulty of doorbell ditching in Rexburg!

So since Shane lives the furthest away we decided to doorbell ditch his apartment first. He lives in Brighton Townhouses which is just behind Shelbourne Apartments. Us being the bright group of girls we are thought of course we'll park at Shelbourne walk around behind it drop the cookies off and then run back.

Really, it sounded perfect.

So Miriam, Hannah, and I get the cookies and we're walking around the side of Shelbourne. The snow is about knew deep, but packed pretty well. We make it around to the back and there's a whole lot of yard between Shane's apartment and Shelbourne. Hannah and I think we should keep going, Miriam has her doubts but follows anyway. We should have listened to Miriam.

The snow is waist deep and for the most part packed pretty tight, but every now and then I'd fall in. I cannot even begin to describe the hilarity that ensued. We were laughing so loud and I kept telling Miriam to just go on without me. It was also ridiculously cold.

We finally make it to the side of the Brighton Townhouses. Good thing Shane lives in the very last one. So Miriam and I walk back behind the townhouses and hide under his kitchen window while Hannah leaves the cookies and rings the doorbell. It's sad because while running back to us Hannah fell. Okay actually it was pretty funny. Then we actually had to get out from behind the apartments and thank goodness Kristen was waiting in the parking lot of Brighton because I was freezing!

The other doorbell ditches were a lot less eventful, but still fun. The next apartment we hit was Elder Lewis's, and then #208, and finally our FHE brothers. It really was quite the night.

Monday, February 16, 2009

Valentine's Day Baking

So on Valentine's Day I made chocolate chip cookies for my FHE brothers.

The last time I made chocolate chip cookies (which was for Shane's swim meet) they turned out awful. At least I thought so. It's not all that hard to please guys when it comes to handing them cookies. I used the recipe off the back of the chocolate chip bag, which used to be a safe, easy, and delicious recipe. But no more. I will never trust the back of the bag again!

Anyway so I was going to use Mom Andrews' recipe for chocolate chip cookies, but Miriam forgot to email it to me. Oh Miriam. :) So I googled a recipe and came across one that seemed fairly decent. It turned out pretty awesome I think. I didn't follow it exactly...when do I ever? But I think that's half the fun of baking. Anyway here's the recipe.

- 1 c butter
- 1 c sugar
- 1 c brown sugar
- 2 eggs
- 2 t vanilla extract (I put in just a dash more because I like the way it taste.)
- 3 c flour
- 1 t baking soda
- 2 t hot water
- 1/2 t salt
- 2 cups chocolate chips (I never listen to this. I always just put in however many I want at the time.)

Preheat oven to 350. Cream together the butter, sugar, and brown sugar until smooth. Beat in the eggs one at a time. Add the vanilla. Dissolve baking soda in hot water. Add to batter along with salt. Beat together. Hand stir in flour one cup at a time. Add chocolate chips. Drop by the spoonful onto greased cookie sheet. Bake for 10 minutes or until edges are golden brown.

I made quite a few cookies and then one great big one. Here's the result.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

P.S.

The music and quote have been updated. The quotes are from Criminal Minds. At the beginning and end of each episode one of the characters recites a quote. This one is from Season One Episode Four, Plain Sight.

Key Lime Pie Recipe

Tonight I made Key Lime Pie from scratch for tomorrow's luncheon at our apartment. I found a good recipe online and decided to give it a shot. I'm sick of making cookies and lemon bars and needed something new. I really like the recipe, but I made a few changes to it, which of course only makes it better. :)

Key Lime Pie Recipe

Crust
- Graham Crackers (the original recipe calls for 16, but I used about 8)
- 3 T sugar (I left this out because I think between the filling and the graham crackers there's plenty of sugar)
- 1/2 c butter (I didn't use this much. I just guesstimated)

Pre-heat over to 350. Crush graham crackers. Mix with butter. Spread in 9" pie pan. Bake for 8 minutes.

Filling
- 4 large eggs; yolk only
- 1 14 oz can sweetned condensed milk*
- 1/2 c key lime juice (It calls for freshly squeezed key lime juice. I live in Rexburg, we don't have that. I bought Key West Lime Juice at Broulims and it worked just fine.)
- 2 t grated lime peel, green portion only (Didn't use this due to the fact I didn't have any key limes.)

Use an electric mixer and beat the egg yolks until they are thick and turn to a light yellow, don't over mix. Turn the mixer off and add the sweetened condensed milk. Turn speed to low and mix in half of the lime juice. Once the juice is incorporated add the other half of the juice, continue to mix until blended (just a few seconds). Pour the mixture into the pie shell. Bake at 350 for 12 minutes.

Meringue
- Egg whites from egg yolks used in pie filling
- Sugar

Beat the egg whites until frothy. Add sugar one tablespoon at a time until it begins to stiffen, then add according to taste. Spread over pie. Served chilled.

*Did you know you can make sweetened condensed milk from scratch? Here's the recipe. I use splenda because of Miriam's allergy to sugar. It's a great way to make recipes diabetic friendly. :)

- 3/4 c sugar
- 1/2 c water
- 1 c 2 T powdered milk

Combine all ingredients. Heat to boiling. Cook until thick. this will take 15-20 minutes. Equals 1 can of regular sweetened condensed milk.

Friday, February 6, 2009

Computer Background

So I've been meaning to make a fantastical background for my laptop so that I can have pictures of all of my loved ones to look at instead of having to settled for changing the picture all the time. So today because I had no class and didn't have to leave the apartment until 1pm I decided to make it. I've had an idea in my head for quite some time of what I wanted it to look like, which made it both simpler and more complicated going in. First I had to find all the brushes I wanted and download them and then import them into photoshop. After I did that I spent quite a bit of time looking for a corkboard background, but to no avail so I improvised by using a cardboard brush and enlarging it to cover the entire background. You can't even tell it's supposed to be cardboard.

The other thing that took quite a while was fitting the pictures on the polaroid brushed and I'm still not quite happy with two of them. I'm a perfectionist what can I say. But I grew frustrated and just figured I'd go back and fiddle around with it some other time. But for now here's the 'finished' product.

I also wanted to make Valentine's Day cards for both Ruth and Tiffany of their kids, but I kept thinking about it and never did it and now it's probably too late. Maybe I'll have time to make them anyway, but they may be after Valentine's Day...maybe I should just shoot for St. Patrick's Day instead.